Fill Me Up

My mind spins from all the choices I’ve made… What I’ve done, what I’ve seen, what I’ve become…
I can’t go back… to make it right, to change, to rearrange, to reconnect… To me.
God I wish I had listened to Your voice, Your warnings, Your touch… If only.
If only I could have seen… The outcome, the wasted years, the spilt tears.
If I could have known…all the hurt, all the dreams I’ve destroyed, all the lost opportunities…for us
I’m lost in me, lost in my head, in my misery, in my pain, freedom
Freedom to be me, to laugh and play, to cry and live.
I just want to live again.
Lord… Fill me up.